Test my faith, O LORD of Hosts for I am full of fear and doubt without you.
But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him. – Hebrews 11:6
A few days ago I asked God to test my faith, this is the second part to that story.
It begins with a dream, like before. This time however, the dream is different, I am in a store in NYC. It happens to be a game store for some reason, I look at games, movies and there is nothing that I like so I walk out. As I walk out I remember I have a key of some sort and I look down on the marble floor of what seemed to be a huge hall where there’s a lot of stores. I know that the key opens up a passage beneath this marble floor of this place and as I drag the key in the air, like magick, the floor opens. I go down there and I know demons dwell where I am going but I was not afraid. It looked like a scene from a horror movie, there was fire to light the place up a little bit but it was darker the further in you went.
Two demons came at me and all I remember is that I know I fought them off and then they started talking and telling me, here she comes, she is the strongest. And I knew it was three demons beneath there and this female one came and screamed and as the scream in my dream happened, so I woke up and heard the scream audibly in my room. I was awake, I felt the same terror crawling up against me, I felt my entire body get goosebumps and I remember what I had promised myself in the post before. I knew I was being attacked yet again but this time I was not afraid of Jesus not answering me, I knew He would, I knew I was His son and I knew that He was trying to show me that only faith can please Him.
As this demons puts terror into my body and my mind, with it’s screeching scream, I tell it, in the name of Jesus that I bind it and that I am not afraid of it. Immediately the scream stops, almost like someone put their hand over it’s mouth. I get a nice calm over me and I knew it was hovering behind me, waiting for me to tell it something else, I know it tries to speak to me, it fights and struggles and at this point I become furious, I feel anger come up inside of me like a wave, there was no more fear. I remember my previous post of telling it to go into the abyss if it ever happened again, I remember the Bible, what it said in Luke 8:31 And they besought him that he would not command them to go out into the deep. And with great pleasure I commanded it to go into the abyss, the great deep and I mocked it as I did and then another verse came to mind: Notwithstanding in this rejoice not, that the spirits are subject unto you; but rather rejoice, because your names are written in heaven. – Luke 10:20 and I thanked God.
The scream the female demon did was exactly like the scream of a Nazgul in the lord of the rings. I found a video of a guy doing it exactly how she did.
When the unclean spirit is gone out of a man, he walketh through dry places, seeking rest, and findeth none. Then he saith, I will return into my house from whence I came out; and when he is come, he findeth it empty, swept, and garnished. Then goeth he, and taketh with himself seven other spirits more wicked than himself, and they enter in and dwell there: and the last state of that man is worse than the first. – Matthew 12:43-45
This reminds me of how the two spirits came first and then the third one came which was worse than the two combined. Something to think about.
I asked God to test my faith and He did. I know this is why I had these experiences, it began the day after I asked Him to test my faith, when I tell you I am not a dreamer, I mean it. It is extremely rare for me to dream any kind of dreams, maybe 2 times a year and I am being honest. If I do dream, I never remember them and I surely do not wake up because of bad dreams, not in the middle of the night at 2AM. My biggest fear has always been that He wont respond or help me and I think this is exactly what I needed from God. He remains faithful, I am His. I needed this lesson and I am grateful for it. I leave you with a song I enjoy, amen and God bless you.